i dont get why

I'm friends or care about people

they just fuck you over

I want a tattoo now.

Haaa I'm gonna be one of those people that goes out and gets inked whenever something

happens yep.

my way of dealing with pain - causing myself pain and making sure its on my body for for ever.

FUCK! Tonight.

Hello world

time for another fucked up ride

Listing to Suffokate

and hoping for some way to get out of manteca for

spring break

oh yes..

i love you

and then the fire burned..

That's kind of how I feel. Like a forest that was scorched I don't know if that makes much sense but I feel like the old person I was about 8 months ago has been burned away and replaced with this person that I don't like at all. Maybe I need another blaze to help this person melt away. Maybe I need to be like a phoenix and rise from the ashes anew haha - cliché if you ask me. I will take what I am given at the moment - withstand the blaze this time and hope when I stand up and brush myself off I can look in a mirror and be if not happy at least somewhat content with the person that I am.